I feel totally stupid when I go for alumni band. :(
And my tone. It is so airy and so concealed and so flat. I just have to play for five minutes before my diaphragm and mouth start throbbing.
I miss my clarinet, but it isn't mine anymore. :(
Still, at some point in time it was, and I miss that clarinet and not the one that isn't mine anymore.

My mood has been turbulent today.
Mr lee was really mad at my section C and I was really really upset because I don't know at all how I managed to run out of time for PHYSICS? And I missed one whole 10 mark question! :( don't even/ever talk to me about prelim results.