I think it's good to be alone and contemplate your own life. To recall and savour the happy moments & even relive occasions that provoked bitterness.
Sometimes there is something about sorrow that is inexplicably beautiful...?
& then there is something else about waiting futilely for things that will never materialize to happen that makes life all the more worthwhile(to some degree).
Anyway thank God, for giving me a place to find solace in during the tumultuous times of life. I know I will/can never ever be so heavy hearted again.