God has been very good to me, because he gives me more than what i need, and sometimes more than what i want, and i feel immensely touched by His generosity towards my family and i.
but i'm feeling sad because i don't think i'm living life in a pleasing way and i think God must be very upset to see me waste away my life just like that.

anyway today's captain's ball was fun, because we didn't play with the guys!!
so we had a more gentle match amongst the girls, and, we won!

And i have something horrible to say.
I GOT LOWEST IN CLASS FOR WENSHIKE.
i got a horrible SIX!
dai laoshi scolded us and made me feel so remorseful about it.
but at least i feel more motivated to do better now.
but wen shi class is really so uber boring...
cheryl and i mostly spend our time counting the number of times the teacher says "ok" and "hao(3)".

and i dont wanna be kicked out of higher mother tongue, so i'm gonna buck up and try harder.
and i'm going to japan in 7 more days.
and i think it feels a bit phenomenal. lol.
i feel so disorganised because i haven't done many preparations for the trip.
and yay! charissa offered to send me to the airport next week!
she's so nice.

and i have the jps event tomorrow,so i can't go for band!
but at least i'm going out with meiling, vennesa, gabbie and claudia tomorrow.
and i'm gonna buy more clothes for japan.
and i'll be going with charissa on sunday also.

and i realised that teeny weeny bits of vulgarities have been popping out of my mouth recently which makes me feel :( about myself.

and i'm in discipline and public relations. i didn't even choose it. my first option was WELFARE, and my scond option was I.A, so i don't understand what i'm doing here. but i don't really mind though, it's just that my grooming is a little horrible and i get jittery making speeches in front of huge crowds.
so i think i dont fit my post.

& please take my friend's test.